My biggest fans....

So I know it's been a while...a long while. And I could dwell on the fact that I'm a slacker, or my time is gone, but I've just decided to move forward. I've had so many posts I've wanted to write over the last few months, but it just seems to get away from me...and really doesn't that seem to happen to us all?
It happens with friends old & new that you want to see, but days turn into weeks, turn into months, & you realize that it's been a year.
Time flies when you are having fun...when you are just busy, busy, busy....I feel like it's flying by...like I've lost a decade and here I am.
Inhale...Exhale...Tune in.
Sometimes I'm working so hard at making the memory with my girls I forget that simple things like walking through a parking lot hand in hand is the memory. I need to embrace it now. I'm not stating anything new, but this is my moment, my turning. Of course truth be told I've had those moments more than once. This holding on to the truly sacred, not wanting to trade the treasure I have in my family for the cheap & fleeting.
And here I go again down the guilty parent road, plagued with jarring pot holes of time wasted & children growing up faster than I can keep up.

So back to a few weeks ago when we headed to a local high school football game. It was a crazy afternoon. First, went to a birthday party of a good friend at Chuck E. Cheese.  Chuck E. Cheese can send me spiraling down the road of crazy at ridiculous speeds if it's crowded. Fortunately, my friend scheduled the party at a very tame time.  We practically had the place to ourselves & we all  had a great time. We left just after cake, because my girls are serious about their birthday cake consumption and headed to our next activity, High School Football game. Little Sunshine was going to be singing the national anthem with her school during half time. We showed up early for the meet & greet of the band members. The girls were excited & looking forward to seeing the marching band at halftime. Apparently the band was going to form the letters "M" & "O" for the school name.

As we were watching the band play & make formations  Little Red turned to me & asked "When are they going to spell out "MOM"?
My heart melted at that moment.  She didn't think the fanfare was all about the game or about the band, or even her sister singing with her school. The band was going to spell out MOM.
And why wouldn't they, after I'm a pretty big deal in her world. This thought stopped me in mental tracks.

I think about that when I feel like I'm failing...when I'm not doing enough. When I'm feeling ugly on the inside & out. The times I mess it up big time & I ask for forgiveness from my children.  Their love for me is true.  That's what I need to remember. Love abounds!
Now each time I see a band take up the field I'm pretty sure they'll be spelling out MOM before the show is over.

   Kent State University Marching Band Spelling out Mom & Pop. (1950s)
   Credit attributed to Kent State University Office of Public Relations